Form 3 Life
It isn't as easy as it seems. I've never really experienced so much mixed
feelings in my heart.I thought it would be easy, but it isn't. It seems not
everyone can get what they want. It feels like a dagger pierced right
through your heart, disabled, numb and incapable of doing anything.
feelings in my heart.I thought it would be easy, but it isn't. It seems not
everyone can get what they want. It feels like a dagger pierced right
through your heart, disabled, numb and incapable of doing anything.
Expecting you to feel the same way back, in efforts of bonding a tighter
relationship. Result ?Making things worst into something that will never
be the same again, always in doubt. In my heart, I want you to feel the
same way, but its the opposite, isn't it ? Jealousy has overtaken me. I'm
relationship. Result ?Making things worst into something that will never
be the same again, always in doubt. In my heart, I want you to feel the
same way, but its the opposite, isn't it ? Jealousy has overtaken me. I'm
always been insecure of what you think of me, what you want me to be,
just to be with you.My mind, it blows up into pieces. I've never thought
of life in such a way, such a way that everything is so not just simple.
I wish it was, I wish I was just another guy that goes through life everyday,
just to be with you.My mind, it blows up into pieces. I've never thought
of life in such a way, such a way that everything is so not just simple.
I wish it was, I wish I was just another guy that goes through life everyday,
not aware about whats happening and just go to school, eat and sleep.
I've never really cared about who's around me. I never even noticed you.
Its all your fault. Why did you have to come into my life ? Now all I can do
is just stick to you,but you..you only run away,far far away.I feel so crushed
when I talk to you. The words that come out from my mouth, I have to think
twice before I say it. I've always thought, you were different.Yes you are,
but the way you think, its just the same as the others, am I right ?
I've never teared up before, besides the times when I was younger,
and getting scolded terribly by my parents, way way back.
Its you.. you made me do it. My eyes were so sore. Its silly I know
For a Form 3 guy to tear up over such silly things like these ?
Your words..are sharper than a sword. You really pierce through me.
I've spent so many restless nights. It was the worst holiday ever.
Now, its a beginning of a horrible new year. Will it get better ? ..
Its all your fault. Why did you have to come into my life ? Now all I can do
is just stick to you,but you..you only run away,far far away.I feel so crushed
when I talk to you. The words that come out from my mouth, I have to think
twice before I say it. I've always thought, you were different.Yes you are,
but the way you think, its just the same as the others, am I right ?
I've never teared up before, besides the times when I was younger,
and getting scolded terribly by my parents, way way back.
Its you.. you made me do it. My eyes were so sore. Its silly I know
For a Form 3 guy to tear up over such silly things like these ?
Your words..are sharper than a sword. You really pierce through me.
I've spent so many restless nights. It was the worst holiday ever.
Now, its a beginning of a horrible new year. Will it get better ? ..
Can I get up there ?
Can I live up to my expectations ?
Will you talk to me like you talk to that person ?
Will you whisper through my heart's deepest core ?
Will you be there when I need you, out of will but not pity ?
Will you look for me, when I whisper to myself " please come .. " ?
Would you make me an exception, and feel the same way I do ?
All these unanswered questions leave me uncertain, in doubt and misery.
Its never about me. Its about you. Yes I am the problem, I'm in the wrong.
But,what can I do to fix this broken pieces together,to make you say"Yes."?
You've come into my life, I can't get you outta my head.
Please don't leave me this way..
Please don't leave me this way..
Its a big loss. I've lost you guys. Its hard to leave something you treasure
behind. This suffering, it hurts so deeply. I've never thought of these until
it happened. Things are just different. I can no longer be me anymore,
Oliver Leonard Jalleh, who are you ? I don't want to put on a mask
behind. This suffering, it hurts so deeply. I've never thought of these until
it happened. Things are just different. I can no longer be me anymore,
Oliver Leonard Jalleh, who are you ? I don't want to put on a mask
everyday, representing a whole different side of me just to adapt into
the environment. Why ?Why must you all leave me ? I'll have to wear
that mask everyday now. Otherwise, I think I'll be emo-ing in a corner.
A corner without love, joy or laughter. Somewhere I don't want to exist in.
the environment. Why ?Why must you all leave me ? I'll have to wear
that mask everyday now. Otherwise, I think I'll be emo-ing in a corner.
A corner without love, joy or laughter. Somewhere I don't want to exist in.
I rather stare blank at the floor and live in my very own world, than face
the world with fakeness.
the world with fakeness.
Sorrow overcomes happiness.
God, if you really exist. Reveal yourself to me. If I am really your child.
Cover me under your wings, and guide me. Life has revealed itself.
Life
Equals.
Empty.
EMPTY.
